Today is going to be a struggle

Today is our Halloween potluck here at work and we have everything. We have wings, hot dogs, nachos, chili, chicken tetrazzini, cake, brownies and much more. I told Fidel (My trainer) that I would be good and i’m definitely gonna try. It’s 10:39 am and i’ve already had a small brownie and a plates of nachos. Definitely not brekfast food. I’m gonna try to eat small portions of the food I like to I don’t stuff myself. We will see how it works. I’ll keep you updated.

I’m so hungry!!!!

It is 10/12/08 @ 12:06am and I am STARVING. I didn’t do to good or bad today. I was craving McDonald’s so instead of my regular double cheeseburger meal I opted for a cheeseburger happy meal. It did the job. And for dinner I had a 5inch Italian BMT on wheat from subway but that was around 6 o’clock. So 6 hours later. I’m starving. I have a thing for cereal at night but I don’t have any milk and my other late night staple is cheese toast. I have one foot in the bed and one foot out. The best thing to do would be to go to  sleep but i’m not sleepy and that’s because my stomach’s growling….lol. Jesus help me make it through.

Keeping a food journal is great

My trainer Fidel gave me a sheet to fill out for Breakfast, snack, lunch, snack, dinner and snack. I will turn the sheet into him and he will grade it and tell me what I need to fix. I love that because before I didn’t have to be accountable but now I know he’s going to check it, it makes me want to do good. I’ve actually have been enjoying my healthy food options. My weakness is fast food or eating at a restaurant. If I can stay away from these places, I would be fine. Or if I go to McDonald’s I won’t have to get the Double Cheeseburger meal but instead order a salad or wrap or something. I can do it. I believe in me.

I could devour that through the computer screen. I hope at the end of this journey I will not feel the same about Double Cheeseburgers.

My first week of my journey

I am on a journey to get healthy and fit. I have been about 30 pounds over weight since my had my son. He will be 7 in a couple of months so that tells you how long. I’m sick of being over weight and not being able to fit anything so I decided to enlist a personal trainer. I can’t do it alone. I met with my trainer Fidel on Monday and talked about getting started. I came back in on Wednesday for my assessment. I was so embarrassed. He measured my fat, pinched my stomach and arm fat with the fat pincher thing. He also took before pictures of me. Wow I am really doing the right thing because those pictures were despicable. He then went on to have me doing some exercises to see my strength. He kicked my butt. I was so tired and out of shape. I could hardly do a sit up on the stability ball. It was definitely tough but I think with persistence and dedication, I’ll accomplish my goal.

Current Weight: 170 pounds
Shirt Size: Large
Jean Size: 15 Juniors